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Lost days, pictures fade.
Absence, may cost more than just anything. How can there be pain in a place where there is so much joy? A loving relationship is the most awesome experience in the world. This is why it also holds the potential for so much sadness. There are so many things that can go wrong. But you must remember, if you might not have the chance to be with her again, you may just break down and cry. But please smile while crying, let her know that you will be fine without her even if you're not, because she may be happier without your presence. |
Reminiscence.
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Friday, November 12, 2010
A girl in love asked her boyfriend. Girl: Tell me. Who do you love most in this world? Boy: You, of course! Girl: In your heart, what am I to you? Boy: The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said, "You are my rib. It was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life, you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart." After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while. However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems, their life became mundane. All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated. One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!" The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!" Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up. Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." She continued, "It is less painful this way. Let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners." Five years went by... He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and back. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him. In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her. One day, they finally met. At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them. She smiled at him gently. Boy: How are you? Girl: I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib? Boy: No. Girl: I'll be flying to New York in the next flight. Boy: I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You know my number. Nothing has changed. With a smile, she turned around and waved good bye. Good bye... One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York, in the event that shocked the world. Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarette. And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew. She was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken. Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury. Most often than not, the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental. We vent our frustrations 99% at our loved ones. And even though we know that we ought to "think twice and act wisely", it's often easier said than done. Things happen each day, many of which are beyond our control. Let us treasure every moment and everyone in our lives. Tomorrow may never come. Give and accept what you have today. 12:20 AM
Sunday, October 10, 2010
She was not beautiful. Nothing about her was extraordinary. Nothing about her made her stand out in a crowd. She grew up in a family of six and being the eldest, she learned responsibility at an early age. As she grew stronger and brighter, she instilled a sort of light and cheer to whomever she met. She was not beautiful, but she made others feel better about themselves. She meets a rebel boy who thinks he is all man, befriending him, she teaches him. She teaches him how to read and a little boost, the 'man' needed to go to college, they become fast friends and she fell fast in love with her rugged handsome student. The 'man' then finds himself in love with a girl. A girl who was so beautiful. Her hair was a hallow of light around her. Her eyes the bluest blue of the ocean. 'Like an angel' he tells his tutor 'like a beautiful angel.' The girl swallows a lump at her throat. She was not beautiful, she did not posses the heart of the one he loved, but she did not care. As long as he was happy, she would be happy, or so she tried to. She helped write the most beautiful letters to his angel. All the time visioning it was she herself receiving those very letters. And so the girl helped him choose the right clothes, say the right words, and buy the right gifts for his angel. His angel brought him much joy and much pain to the girl who cried behind her smiles. But that never stopped her from giving more than she will ever receive. Then one day, the angel he loved left him for another man. A richer more successful man. The boy was stunned. He was so hurt, he did not speak for days. The girl went to him. He cried on her shoulder and she cried with him. He was hurt and she was too. Time went by and so wounds heal. The boy realizes something about his friend/tutor. Something he never realized before. How her laughter sounded heavenly and how her smiles brightened up the darkest days, or how simply beautiful she looked to him! Beautiful. This plain, simple girl was beautiful to him. And he began to fall. Fall so in love with this beautiful girl. On one day, he picked up all his courage to see her. He walked to her house, nervous, and fidgeting, Running his thoughts over and over his head. He was going to tell her how beautiful she was to him. He was going to tell her how wonderfully in love he was with her. He knocked. No one was home. The next day, he found out that the beautiful girl he fell in love with had a brain tumor that put her into a coma. The doctors were grim and the family decided to let her go. One final time he got to see her. He held her hand. He stroked her hair and he cried for this beautiful girl. He cried, but it was too late. The beautiful girl was buried and the heavens broke. Out a beautiful spring shower, a cry for their loss. She was the most beautiful girl in the world and she had taught the rebel boy-man to love and what it is to be loved. She was the most beautiful girl in the world. Look around. Aren't there a lot of plain faces? Take a good look. A real good look or you might just miss out that beautiful person. 4:26 AM
Monday, September 13, 2010
There was this couple. They had their problems. They fought. She was mean, and he was meaner. But they loved each other deeply. One day, they fought again. Only this time, it didn’t get better. All they could think of is how it is finally going to be the last straw. They hung on for a little So days went by. They didn’t talk much to each other at all. Then after a week of barley talking. She went to his house. His heart hit his throat. he had so many butterflies in his stomach he thought he was gonna throw up. He didn’t know what to say. She just came in, put her stuff down and they went to his bedroom. She asked "how are you?" After that afternoon together, she left. Later, he went on his computer to see if she was online. She wasn't. He continued waiting but hours went by and she still didn’t come online. He waited as long as he could before going to bed. The next day was not as good as the previous as she emailed him saying "Hi, yesterday was great but you know it doesn't change anything. I still don’t want to be with you, and I don’t know if I can see you anymore. I want to move on with my life." Days went by as if time has slowed down. Once again, he didn’t see her for a couple of days. Then out of the blue, she called. he picked it up on the first ring once he saw her name on the caller id. They talked and she asked how was he and he asked how was school going. At the end of it, she said she had to go and that she will talk to him later online before hanging up. However, there were things he didn’t say, wanted to say and needed to say. He figured that he will just tell her later. Hence, he went online later on that night and she was online! He started talking to her immediately. The conversation was good until she told him how she felt about not loving him anymore and wanting a new life. Once again, it felt like he was hit on the head with a pipe. All that went through his head was "This can't be... I love her" Another week went by and they didn’t see each other. Until fate stepped in again. She came over to his place. He was happy that she did because he was not having a very good day and he knew if he saw her his day would be so much better. She went right into his place and they went right into his room. They talked and watched TV and she was being very close to him. However, in his mind he was telling himself. "This isn’t real, it will just happen like last time." After a while of just laying in bed together, they started to kiss. When his lips touched hers, he became like a feather, floating in the wind. All his sadness and anger went away in a instant. They made love that afternoon. And that would be the last time they saw each other in a friendly manner. After time. they started to fight. A lot. Just pure hatred with one another. It was not good. And it didn’t look like it was getting better any time soon. He thought to himself. "If she hates me so much, why be here." The next day, he left for his trip. Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. Then on one sunny afternoon, she got a call to her house. She couldn’t believe it. She could not believe he was gone forever. She never got to say a real goodbye. She never got to tell him how she felt. At the same time she felt anger. Hence, she asked, "Well why didn’t you do anything for him?" "My dearest love, That was the end of it. Now she is in total hysteria. She is shaking so bad that she can not even hold on to the phone. All she was thinking about washow she never told him the same and how she never get the chance to tell him how she felt. The officer went on to say something else. P.s. I'm back ! (: 4:34 AM
Friday, August 27, 2010
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Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Three years in the courtship and now two years into marriage, I would have to admit I am getting tired of it. The reasons for loving him previously has now transformed into the causes of all the restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive and exquisite when it comes to relationships and feelings, I yearn for romantic moments, as though a little boy yearning for candy. However, my husband, is just a contrast of me. His lack of sensitivity, and of all, inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision about wanting a divorce. "Why?" he asked, shocked. Looking deep into his eyes, I slowly answered, The next morning, he was not around. However, I saw a piece of paper with his handwriting underneath a glass of warm milk. It goes like this... Dear, This first line has already broke my heart. I continue reading. "You are hopeless with computers and always mess up the programs in the PC and end up crying in front of screen. You always left the house keys behind. You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to lead you the way. You always have cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every month. You like to stay indoord and I am worried that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tells you jokes and stories to cure you of your boredom. You always stare at the computers and that is not healthy for your eyes. I have to save my eyes so that when we grow older, I can help to clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. I will hold your hand, stroll down the beach and enjoy the warm sunshine and beautiful sand together... I will also tell you the colour of flowers, just like the glow on your young face... Thus my dear, before I am sure there are someone who loves you more than I do... I would not pick the flower and die.. " My tears drop on the letter and blurred the ink of his handwriting... and I resume my reading... "And now, dear... you have finished reading my answer. If you are satisfied with these answers, please open the door of our house. I am standing right there, with your favorite bread and fresh milk... I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, with the milk and bread in his hands... Oh I am sure no one will ever love me as much as him, and I have decided to leave the flower alone... And so thats life or some say love. Love shows in any form, even in very little and corny forms. It has never been a model, It could be in the most incurious form like flowers. However, romantic moments is only the buckish formed on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands, and that's our life. Sometimes, we do not cherish the things around us and ask for more. Perhaps we should all sit down and think about what have we all been doing and learn the appreciate what we have better. 4:50 AM
Friday, August 20, 2010
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Life Is A Gift Today before you think of saying an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak. Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat. Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion. Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven. Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren. Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets. Before whining about the distance you drive - Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet. And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job. But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker. And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive Life is a gift, Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it and fulfill it. 12:14 AM
Monday, August 16, 2010
Part 1 June 17, 1999 Part 2
“There you are you wicked girl!” I decided to take a shortcut home but as I passed the alley, a hand pulled me in. I was knocked to the ground and a shadow hovered over me. I began to scream but the same hand covered my mouth. I guess you can call me the dumbest person alive. I was afraid I had kicked the boy too hard and permanently damaged him. Besides, since my life is hell already, I didn’t want him to go through it too. So I turned back. 4:18 AM
Friday, August 13, 2010
The hottest love has the coldest end. I opened myself up I let it all out I told you everything because i had no doubts but now im left with nothing because you didnt feel the same all i have is a broken heart and im the one to be blamed Seeing you everyday isn't what hurts the most.. is seeing you while your starring at her that kills.. Briuses my heal but scares are never forgotten Why do we sleep when the next day we wake to still live with yesterday Remember the feelings, remember the day My stone heart was breaking My love ran away So I say goodbye To everything I thought I knew To Everything I thought of you To the love I thought was true To every one of the chances I blew So I whisper It one last time 'goodbye I love you...' and slowly pull the triger My heart is broken torn in two my world fell apart all because of you There is love of course. And then there's life, its enemy. My knight and *SHINING* armor turned out to be a LOSER in alluminum foil... How come whenever i think i'm standing strong, you somehow pull me back down Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion. It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all. They say that you can't lie to yourself, well I told myself I wouldn't fall in love with you...and here I am Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart. Love seeketh not itself to please, nor for itself hath any care, but for another gives its ease, and builds a Heaven in Hell's despair. Every nite i ask god to make me feel nothing but love ,but if you really think about it love is nothing but pain Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation. Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing. If you would be loved, love and be lovable. I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived. 8:40 AM
Went M'sia yesterday to attend a dinner. Went to Nightclub and the bass there was powerful, haha. Headed back Sg around 3 then met other friends. Friend came to my place and slept then woke up around 3 plus, headed over Lucky Plaza to look for somebody. Then back home <:
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Sunday, August 8, 2010
I had three friends. Eric, Cathlyn, Carol. Eric was chased by all the girls in our high school. Cathlyn was one of those popular girls. Cheerleader, sexy, and stylish. Carol was just one of those plain and average girls . Cathlyn and Carol were both totally crazy and wacko over Eric. Cathlyn didn't have to do anything to attract Eric. For she was already attractive enough. Carol on the other hand, showered Eric which love and care. Carol wasn't ugly at all. In fact, she looked sweet and pleasant. But she wasn't a cheerleader, she didn't were spaghetti-straps or tubes. So like everyone expected, Eric chose Cathlyn. For Carol was just one ordinary and plain girl. While Cathlyn was labele d as the cool and attractive type. Eric always insulted Carol. Telling her what a 'Plain Jane' she was. And how dumb she looked. Which obviously made Carol feel so hurt and useless. That's life. Carol never gave up though. She wanted to prove something to Eric. She wanted to prove that looks aren't everything. She studied hard, really hard. She became the top girl, and all the guys who once ignored her, chased her. But she never forgot Eric. Everyday, she put a red rose in Eric's locker. Always with the same words. 'I care for you, and I always will' Because she knew that Eric was facing a hard time. Eric began to realise. How dumb he had been. His beloved girlfriend, Cathlyn. Was flirting with other guys. He regretted for choosing the wrong girl. Cathlyn broke up with Eric later. For she had found a wealthier guy. Eric felt so cheated, stupid and dumb. He went to look for Carol. He knelt on his knees, and said. "Carol, please forgive me. Do you want to be my girlfriend?" Carol rejected him, much to everyone's surprise. She only uttered these words. "You've suffered a great loss, so I don't want you to face another one" Eric felt disappointed. He didn't understand a word that she said to him. But they became good friends. Did everything together. Eric began to change into someone better. Because Carol showered him with the love he never experienced before. His ex-girlfriends had never treated him that way. They just accepted him for his looks. But Carol accepted him for himself . She changed him. Carol continued putting a red rose into his locker everyday. With the same words. She never forgot. One day, Carol didn't turn up in school. She didn't come for a week. At first, Eric thought that she was on a vacation with her family. Because she told him that she would be going Hawaii with them. But one day. He received a call from the General Hospital. Saying that Carol was about to die. She had been suffering from cancer. But Carol forbade them from telling him. Because she didn't want Eric to worry about her. But now that she was about to die. She wanted to see Eric for the last time. Eric rushed to the hospital. When he saw how weak Carol was. Tears began rushing down his cheeks. He whispered. "Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why did you hide this from me?" She looked at him . And smiled weakly at him. "When I said that I didn't want you to suffer from facing another loss, I meant this. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry. I wanted to spend my last days with you cheerfully." Eric looked at her. "You can't leave me!" he said. "What will I be without you?" "You'll be who you are now. I will always be there by your side. Never forget that. Cherish those times. Live life happily. And one more thing." "Yes?" "I love you" And she died. Eric screamed. He still couldn't accept Carol's death. He had only spent a month with Carol. A month. But Carol changed his life in a way. A way that no one could ever explain. He regretted. But he knew that Carol would always be keeping an eye on him from Heaven. Sometimes We just don't appreciate those people who really care for us. Until they leave us. Until we lose them. Then we regret. Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that counts. It's better to tell someone how much you love them. Rather than to not tell them and lose them without telling them. You'll regret Love is. When we fight till the very last minute. Just to show and tell someone how much we love them. 2:52 AM
Saturday, August 7, 2010
![]() ![]() Went Lucky Plaza yesterday at around 5 to look for friend. Played billard until 8 plus went over to look for Crystal. She's wearing superman tee also. Haha, walked over to Shaw house and chilled there, then planned how are we going to kill our midnight hours. So went over to Lucky Plaza's pub with them. 3 of Crystal's friends came after that. Chivas <: Sang song then all dispersed at around 2 plus. Went down Geylang to look for some other friends then bought a Bombay and headed home at 6. Haha <: 2:47 AM
Friday, July 30, 2010
Love is blind. The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. The n she's settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg. It had been a year since Susan became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. 'How could this have happened to me?' she would plead, her heart knotted with anger. But no matter how much she cried or ranted or prayed, she knew the painful truth, her sight was never going to return. A cloud of depression hung over Susan's once optimistic spirit. All she had to cling to was her husband Mark. Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength she needed to become independent again. Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task. Soon, however Mark realized that this arrangement wasn't working - it was hectic, and costly. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But just the thought of mentioning it to her made him cringe. She was still so fragile, so angry. How would she react? Just as Mark predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again. "I'm blind!" she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I'm going? I feel like you're abandoning me." Mark's heart broke but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each day he would ride the bus with her until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day. He taught her how to rely on her other senses to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat. Each morning they made the journey together, and Mark would take a cab back to his office. Although this routine was even more costly and exhausting than the previous one, Mark knew it was only a matter of time before Susan would be able to ride the bus on her own. Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday.... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying for her fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? "Why do you envy me?" The driver responded, "It must feel so good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, "What do you mean?" The driver said, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you when you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches you until you enter your office building. Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was blessed, so blessed, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there had been darkness. 11:57 PM
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Meet friends up then headed over to Cdan at 1 plus. Bowled then chilled until around 3 before heading to have our lunch. 6 plus headed over to Yew Tee to look for co. Had some drinks then headed to Batok look for others. Tipsyyyy :/ 11:32 PM
Thursday, July 22, 2010
The BreakupBoy: Baby, we need to talk. Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad. You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and dont you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the right thing, and you were never there. I didnt think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye. [ Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ] [Breaking news] "An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for survivors... This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80... it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." the Reporter says. ... A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a message. "Its Ricardo, I guess you're not home so, I called to let you know that I'm alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried. I am staying for good. 9:07 AM
Monday, July 19, 2010
It has been a year, but still, memories are very fresh, as if it happened yesterday. It was September 2008. I had my boyfriend, his name is Ash. We've been together since we're children. Actually, we're childhood sweethearts. He courted me when I was 11, and with no 2nd thought, I answered him "yes" for I had loved him since we're children. Many of our friends told us that we look good together, that we're compatible. Our parents knew about our relationship and they approve of this, they even support us and give us some points on how to make our relationship last. Everything went so well.. almost perfect.. but something happened during my birthday, it was our anniversary. September 8, 7:00 in the morning: he called me, greeting me, "happy anniversary." My heart sank in joy. He had always remembered it, and then I replied "happy anniversary too." After that, I've been waiting for him to greet me happy b-day but he didn't. He bid me good-bye on phone and when he was about to hang-up the phone, I told him "wait!" He asked me what, and then I said "do you remember something? aside from our anniversary?" Then he responded "No. nothing" After that he hung-up the phone. I felt sad, for all of the years we've been together, this is the first time he'd forgotten about my b-day. Is this because of Jane? I asked myself, because there are rumors spreading in our campus that Jane and Ash are dating. Some of my friends even showed me pictures, which I denied and told them they're just friends.. When school ended, we went to the mall, ate together and watched movie as usual. We exchanged gifts as usual, he gave me a box with a heart shaped necklace that can be opened to put pictures inside. But I only received 1 and it is for our anniversary, even though today is my b-day. When we're walking on the road, with many buses and cars passing by, I asked him, "Don't you remember something?" "Uhm... nope." he replied It broke my heart. How come he'd forgotten about my b-day?? "I hate you!! it's also my b-day you know! yet, you forgot it!! you've forgotten about your promise!" 3 months ago, he'd promise to give me a ring for my birthday. "Maybe, it's true that you and Jane are dating!" I continued, and then I threw the box with the necklace in the road. He went to pick it up with a face so sad, and then suddenly a car is coming after him, and them BOOM! He laid there with blood spilling everywhere. I shouted for help. I went beside him and wiped the blood in his face while tears run down my cheeks. Then, he smiled weakly, and giving the box with the necklace to me and said "Happy anniversary and happy b-day, keep this.." then he collapsed. When we're in the hospital, his parents soon arrived, sobbing and everything. I was waiting outside the E.R., waiting for the doctors result. The doctor came out and said he's alive, but he's 50-50.. he was moved to ICU. I was inside his room, holding his hand and then I notice that I'm still holding the box with the necklace. I opened the pendant, instead of our picture, a note was written there. FLIP THE PAPER INSIDE THE BOX. Under that paper, was a gold ring, just a simple one, and there's our picture with a note, it said: My dearest Grace, I hope you like this ring, this is what I promised to you, I'm sorry if I didn't greet you happy b-day in the morning and pretended I forgot it. I just wanted to surprise you. I love you so much, you're the sunshine of my life, you're the moon of my night. I know we're too young, but I want to tell you that I want to marry you when we grow up. I'm sorry if you believe that I and Jane are dating, but we're not. I am only begging for her help, for she knows what kind of ring you like. I'm sorry if it's just simple, I don't have enough money and I don't have enough things to sell, but I hope you like it. Happy anniversary and happy birthday!! Remember that I'll always love you.. for my heart is always with you. love, Ash While reading this, tears are running down my cheeks and I can't believe what I was reading. He's just trying to be romantic with me and yet, I was so childish and I caused his accident. I wear the ring and the necklace. I kept the photo in my pocket, and I leaned forward to kiss him in his forehead. I whispered in his ear: "I'm so sorry I am childish, I should have been mature. I love you, and my heart is also with you, and yes, I will marry you when we're fully grown-up. Always remember you're my first and last true love in my life." Those were my exact words to him, and after I said it to him, he gently opened his eyes, he looked at me, he smiled weakly and said: "I'll always love you, my sunshine" Then slowly, his eyes closed, his hand slipped in mine and he died. Yes, it has been 5 months, but still, I love him. I promised to myself I'll never love other boy again, for my heart is with him. I still can't move on. My morning is cloudy, for there's no sun. My night is very dark, for there's no moon. It's too late now that I'd realized, material things are nothing, compare to the love you are receiving. Until now, I keep the ring he had given me. Even though I'm just 13 years old, I don't call my experience a puppy love, but true love, yes, true love. Now that Ash had left me in this dark and hideous world, I don't know my purpose for living. I will live, but I promised my self never to fall for others, for Ash is the only one for me. 7:27 AM
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From today on, i'll be who i am supposed to be.
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Saturday, July 17, 2010
Love For 100 DaysMessage: Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half. Day 2: Day 3: Day 7: Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something. Day 25: Day 67: Day 84: Day 99: 1:23 pm
11:51 pm The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said. Tina, 11:58 As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days. 4:19 AM
Friday, July 16, 2010
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Tuesday, July 13, 2010
A Painful Regret 10th grade As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. 11th grade The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Senior year The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Graduation Day A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. A Few Years Later Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Funeral Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried. 5:33 AM
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